Apprehensive April

I like: How I Met Your Mother TV series. I’ve heard about this very long time, and I’ve already got some latest copies since few months ago, but I just had time to watch them last week. And I could not stop watching it since then. Yeah I know it’s late, but who cares. I like Barney, the suit guy.

I want you to know: that lately I’ve become apprehensive about my future. Have you been in this situation: you’re taking holiday, forget about the real world, you’re having fun, then you’re back and find your surroundings suddenly are moving on, this friend is getting married, that friend is taking higher school, another friend resigned and got a better job? What?! Whoaa.. seems like you’re left behind. Everybody is chasing their dreams while you’re traveling too much. That’s what I felt last month after going back from Kuala Lumpur holiday. I wanted to sit down and take a moment to think what I am going to do with my life, but I’d already had another holiday plan on the next weekend (to Phuket). And also the next weekend (to Jakarta). Yeah I still don’t know how I planned my holidays, last month I went oversea to neighborhood countries on 3 weekends in a row. When I departed to Phuket I prayed, “God I hope there won’t be any news again about my friends, that make me jealous, after I come back from this holiday later. Amen!”

I don’t like: Batam Center. To complete the 3-weekends-in-a-row-traveling, on the next weekend I went to Batam (so it becomes 4 weekends in a row going oversea). It is one of small islands in Indonesia but very closed to Singapore, only 1 hour by boat. So, I went there in the morning and came back in the afternoon. Yeah the people are friendly, in fact they’re too friendly asking too many private questions and I freaked out. So if you go there (especially for solo woman), my suggestion is do not talk to anybody, even the security guys are creepy. Anyway, things there are cheaper than Singapore. Except shopping, I planned to have hair spa, manicure and pedicure, but the salon in the mal connected to harbor terminal was full. The town is so boring, I will never go back there again.

I’ve planned: to wear suit or dress or any formal clothes for one whole week. Let’s call it the perfect week: seven days, seven suits. Not only it’s inspired by Barney, but this is also because I am tired with my office environment where everybody is wearing jeans and t-shirt. Once I wore a nice suit to office, a colleague asked “are you going for interview in other company?” *sigh*. I know some people may prefer casual clothes for work, but I just don’t like it. I’d love to wear the blazers, pant and skirt suits.. you know, all those stuffs. So, let’s do this challenge!

I want to say to: myself (oh God I’m so self-centered), to become more sociable.