Ya. As a drama queen yang berhati polos dan lembut dan sensitif dan baik hati, I got easily dropping tears when reading/browsing something touched, even in the office yang gada cubicle nya jadi keliatan deh ama temen-temen sekantor klo lagi ngusap-ngusap mata pake tissue (who cares?!).
Then this morning, I couldn’t stand to cry when reading a friend’s fs profile yang bikin gw mengambil kesimpulan kalo dia suda pergi ke luar negri menempuh hidup barunya. Emang sih dari dulu dia bilang mau sekolah lagi ke sana, but I don’t know when, and now she’s suddenly gone??! The last time I met her is on my graduation day (thx for coming, jeung!) and then I got busy with work and new life here (and she’s soooo busy also) so then I forgot the roommates her, jadi jarang menanyakan kabar and then realized that I miss them her, and now she’s gone just like that????!
I ran to toilet crying for a while, trus baru nyadar kenapa ga gw sms dia… jadi gw balik, sms, dan ternyata she’ll be there just a couple months (searching for school), jadi belom bakalan menetap disana selamanya. Gw langsung merasa bego. What were the tears for?! 😛
Beginilah orang mellow. Lebi mementingkan perasaan. Ga pake otak.
Dan gw jadi bingung ko tadi bisa sesedih itu. Padahal mungkin kalo gw yang pergi, dia bakal biasa-biasa aja 😛 Well I indeed miss all my friends. Di masa-masa pencarian jati diri dan menjemput impian ini (seperti sahabat gw yang pergi itu), I hope I won’t lose them.